The beginning of the end.......

Well, finally its here! On the 5th of June, at exactly 2:00 pm we'll finish our last paper, thereby marking the end of a journey. In remembrance of that journey, here is a small poem that I wrote myself

AN ODE TO ENGINEERING

what ode can i give to thee,
you who are forever a part of me

what ode can i give to thee,
you who have sustained me

what ode can i give to thee,
you who have given millions memories to me

what ode can i give to thee,
you who have from darkness to light led me

what ode can i give to thee,
you who has shown me the highest highs and the lowest lows

what ode can i give to thee,
you who has been a home of 4 years to me

what ode can i give to thee,
you who has given my friends to me

what ode can i give to thee,
you who has given my life to me

Odes are for things that pass away,
you'll leave only when I do
an engineer I'll always be,
because you are forever a part of me
tell me O Engineering
what ode can i give to thee?

Well that's about it for this post....... On my way out just another sexy quote i found while surfing on the net:

Even if we are occupied with important things and even if we attain honor or fall into misfortune, still let us remember how good it once was here, when we were all together, united by a good and a kind feeling which made us perhaps better than we are.

- Fyodor Dostoyevsky

Well said eh??

cheers

Moksha

PS: Hell! The 5th of June may not be our last day if we get even a semi-sadist to check our PM/MS papers! Totally screwed man! All my readers... pray... just pray!

PPS: and yes I did write that poem on my own.....

My tryst with destiny - Part II

Yes I know its my third blog in as many days...... But hey if you know that, it means you actually do read my blog, so I guess you really don't have any problems with me even writing everyday huh??

Well lets not digress any further. This post acts as a sequel to this post
so without further ado... lets go......... As I mentioned in the previous post, I will have a tryst with my destiny. The funny thing is that, I won't know if that tryst is the one I am looking for unless I actually do it.
Tomorrow I go to Sydneham Institute of Management Studies aand Research at Churchgate for my Group Discussion/Personal Interview round of the admission process. Is this my true tryst with destiny? I don't know! and being the immoral SOB that I am, if I make it through tomorrow, I shall surely proclaim it to be the one. But no matter what, this day will be life changing for me (right chillar? :) ) Win or Loose, In or Out, tomorrow will go a long way in shaping my next 5-10 years. I hope the change is for the better. And just for the record, yes I am shit scared. My parents have invested a lot of time and money and patience into me and this oppurtunity, I really don't want to waste this, not for my parents, cause they will gladly do the entire thing all over again but for me. Its time I took some responsibility on my own shoulders. I have a younger brother who needs to be shaped up and moulded for his future. I don't want to be a hindrance to that anymore. I wish that God gives me the strength to give my best and do well tomorrow.

As far as the rant that i had on life in my last post... sometimes life does give you a hard deal!! things happen over which you have absolutely no control and you are left shell shocked. Some thing of that sort happened to me and I vented my frustations via that post. You know I could have easily removed that post, but no, I want this blog to be a honest reflection of my feelings. I may not be a great writer but at the very least I know I am an honest one. I saw the Rocky Balboa movie yesterday and Rocky tels his son, " Life is not all sunshine and roses........ Its not about how hard you can hit, its all about how hard you can get hit and keep coming back......."
Hey thats very true. A decision beyond anyone's control had been made, there's no changing certain facts. But I will not back down, I will not submit.... keep on trudging, fighting and climbing......
You know why??? Because in the words of ACDC..............
"its a looong way to the top if you wanna rock n roll................."

cheers
moksha

PS: thanx sid.... tu nahin hota toh mera kya hota re.......... :)
PPS: ME GOING TO WATCH MUMBAI INDIANS vs. KOLKATTA KNIGHT RIDERS........ GO Mumbai Go!!! MI FOREVER.............

When Life fucks you, there is nothing you can do

Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to live and to work and to play and to look up at the stars.
-Henry Van Dyke

as far as Mr. Henry Van Dyke goes, I say Fuck u bitch!!!!
who said life was fair man?? Life is anything but fair........ and you really don't have much choice! You know exactly what I am talking about. You are on the threshold of jumping into the true life(another fucked up cliche!), you are making grandiose plans for the future and then suddenly WHAM! Life comes out of nowhere and kicks you in your nuts. And man doesn't it hurt!
Why does life have to behave like such a bitch? And above all why did you choose me to be your guinea pig? What wrong have I done? I never asked you to make me anything , hell I haven't even asked you to make me human! You had no excuse Life, none at all, to come and fuck me upside down man! Yeah people will hide behind the old saying, "whatever happens happens for the good only......", Hey why don't you guys just come and kiss my big fat arse???? How the fuck do you decide what's good for me and what isn't ??? I do believe that I reserve the right to determine what is good for me and what is not!
So Life why don't you take your ugly face and flush it down the toilet? Come on, I deserve a break man! Hope springs eternal doesn't it?? Hey I wanna see that silver lining in that black cloud. Please life! Please....... Sometimes even the worst of us deserve a better chance. Hey come on life, do this for me..... I need a miracle to help me..... come on gimme some! I wish there was some divine power who specialized in cases like mine. I could have fired off a SOS to him/her. Look, I know I am not the perfect person or anything but there are some things which can be achieved without being perfect. Just show me some hope please.......

HELP ME GODDAMN IT! HELP ME!

moksha

Just another viva...... not quite.......

Well, finally its done and dusted, all the files have been submitted, all reports signed, all journals checked, all submissions sheets filled...........................
the last questions have been answered, the last fleeting smiles to the internal examiner been given, finished peeping at the folded sheet in front of the examiner trying to figure out what the grades were, its over............
But its pretty difficult realizing it, I mean it really doesn't feel as if I will never ever be giving another viva at SFIT. Without realizing, vivas have become such a second nature to most of us, its hard to let go. You know I still remember my first viva, I think it was PCOM, and goddamn it I was so bloody scared! Mrs. Vincy Joseph was our internal examiner and whom it seemed as that time as the biggest sadist of them all was our external (sorry forgot his name!). I entered the lab and Vincy mam gave me a glare...... Ohh Shit! I almost peeed in my pants man! She was asking me some questions, and as expected I really did not answer one word...... the external then took pity and asked me some basic stuff which I could answer. Strange how the sadist changed into my guardian angel :D.
I am pretty much sure that each and every one who reads this blog will have hundreds of memories attached only with vivas. Guys hold on to them, they are pretty important and special... I wish I could compile some ofthe funniest and most amazing viva memories from our class and post it up here. I promise to do that in my next post.
And yes, my vivas are over. Never again will I sit on the stairs wondering when da fuck will the external examiner turn up, or what the fuck is he/she going to ask? I have given around 20 vivas in my time at SFIT, and now I can say with a lot of pride and nostalgia that I LOVED EACH AND EVERY MOMENT OF THEM... yeah some ppl will ask how can you love vivas? hey, the scene is different from this side of the fence! Guys enjoy the ride..... its worth all the bumps and bruises that you get along the way!
And finally as it is my custom here's a little quote.......................

"We do not know the true value of our moments until they have undergone the test of memory."
-Georges Duhamel

How true, isn't it? Well goodbye engineering vivas.... I'll miss you!
and winamp just played Knockin' on heavens door...........
Cheers ppl,
Moksha

PS: hey there are gonna be a lot more senti posts............heheheh! lol :P
PPS: IT-2008, please lemme know any funny memories you can think of when it comes to vivas......