Friday, August 15, 2008

Independence Day.......really???

To all my fellow Indians, a very very Happy 61st Independence Day.
So guys what did you guys to for 15th August this year? I know, I know, it was a holiday, a 3-day weekend, so it was time to chill out, have a good lie-in and then just relax, right?
Its 61 years since we awoke to "life and freedom" in order to maintain our tryst with destiny. much has surely changed since then, except for one singular feature, that being the hoisting of the Tiranga, in offices, residential societies, where-not. My building had that function too.
The scheduled time was set for 10:00 AM, and the flag hoisting was to be followed by a cultural programme and "light" snacks. I make it a point to attend the flag hoisting ceremony every year, so I went down at about five minutes to 10 and big surprise, there were about only 50-odd of us gathered for the event. Now my building has 10 blocks, around 700 flats in total. Considering an average of 4 persons per flat, there are around 2800-3000 people in my building. This means that only 50/2800 i.e 1.78% of the residents thought it was important it was necessary for them to come down for the flag hoisting ceremony. Now I am not a big statistician, but I do know that the subject is based on the fact that you take a small sample, analyze it and expect it to represent the larger whole. If we apply this principle to my case, give a additional +/- 5% for errors, the result is pretty, well, shameful!
In a country of over 1.1 Billion people, only 2-7% people come out to salute the National flag?
OK, maybe that sounds a little far-fetched, but the point at issue is not my statistical analysis, it is the FACT that most of us really don't think it is important enough to get up early, have a bath and come down to salute our National flag, on our Independence day. And this fact is not limited to our National holidays. Consider an everyday scenario, you are going to watch a movie in a theater, where it is mandatory for the owners to have a rendition of the National Anthem. Tell me, truthfully, how many of you sing the National Anthem the way it is supposed to be? FLASHBACK, std VII, Civics class, the paragraph stating the way the national Anthem is supposed to be said - "The body should be erect, hands at the sides, without any movement, the National Anthem should be sung in aloud and clear voice, clearly reflecting your pride in it". I do not think that any of you ever think about these things whenever you go to watch a movie. Did you guys know that it is violation of law, not to sing the national Anthem in such a manner? Also that the National Anthem should be sung for exactly 52 seconds? If you are in class, and an NCC parade outside starts the National Anthem, would you in the middle of the class stand up and recite the Anthem? Think about it.Coming back to my local issue, what really hurt was the fact that the moment the flag hoisting was over and the snacks were announced, the number of people seemed to treble! So their patriotism was only restricted to their gastric calls?
Every Independence day we read innumerable articles about how India has progressed, how the Nation is an emerging superpower, blah blah blah.... There are so many feature films storied around the Patriotism theme. In this moolah of patriotism, have the normal citizens of the country lost the true sense of national fervor? Everyone need not be an Indian army jawan in order to show his/her patriotism. Like charity, patriotism too begins at home. The small things that I mentioned above go along way in showing how proud we are of our country. Cynics might argue that just by saluting the flag and singing the national Anthem doesn't prove thats you are a true patriot. Bingo! You do NOT have to prove your patriotism to anyone, it is for yourself to realize why you love and respect your country. There are many reasons why, here's probably the most mundane of them - Imagine if you were living behind the Iron Curtain in USSR and on a National Holiday, you never got up and saluted the flag, do you realize what would have happened? The KGB would have branded you an American spy and probably jailed you. You live in a country which gives you the freedom, if I may use the word, to NOT show your love and pride in it!
You know what I really hope for? The next time that old uncle who raised the tiranga in my building yesterday, raises it again, there should not be that look of suffering in his eyes when he realizes that today's generation doesn't seem to care about all the sacrifices that our forefathers made so that today we could sleep peacefully in our beds.
I think its time to end my post here, I take your leave with a sonnet that is as true as it was when written.


Where the mind is without fear and the head is held high;

Where knowledge is free;

Where the world has not been broken up into fragments by narrow
domestic walls;

Where words come out from the depth of truth;

Where tireless striving stretches its arms towards perfection;

Where the clear stream of reason has not lost its way into the
dreary desert sand of dead habit;

Where the mind is led forward by thee into ever-widening thought
and action;

Into that heaven of freedom, my Father, let my country awake.

-Rabindranath Tagore

cheers,

JAI HIND!

moksha

PS: for all those doubting Thomases out there, I do observe the rules while singing the National Anthem and yes, once during an IMS lecture at RUIA college, I did get up midway and sing the National Anthem when the NCC band played it under our window.
PPS: This is not an idle boast, I am proud that I could muster up enough courage to do it.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

2 Months later.......

Well I guess I have used this opening before but what the hell...... I'm Back!
Its 2 months to the day and moksha is back with another wonderfully insane post about some crappy psychopathic thing. Well not quite! You see, I'm rather rusty from not having put fingers to keyboard for such a long time, so rather than being loquacious I would be just rambling about general events in the past two months.........
To tell you the truth, the past two months have been quite the roller coaster ride. Things have happened, causing me to confront some harsh realities about myself, and let me assure you it was not pleasant in the least. The way I have lived for the past 4 years caused me to become a complete worm in certain aspects, things which couldn't be ignored. One thing that I have realized is that whenever any person faces a non-physical dilemma, the only person who can help him/her out of it is the person himself. This is not to be taken as an attempt to be contemptuous of the efforts or the advice that my friends have given me. No. But sometimes you have to take some decisions all on your own and the more personal the decisions more is the onus on oneself to take them. There are times in ones life when he faces a impossible situations, (remember the age old adage "from the frying pan into the fire.......") then you really do not know what to do or to whom to turn. The easiest solution is to do what is right, and more often than not these decisions are somethings which cause you intense pain.
I take this pain as an absolution for all the wrongs that I have done to others, a small repayment that maybe God demands of me. There were many ways in which I could have avoided the pain, but I chose not to. My parents have always taught me that its always most important to do what is right, irrespective of the sacrifices that have to be made. So I try to do it. God knows my reasons and ultimately he shall judge me. I hope to do some good.
I guess I had mentioned that this would not be a psychopathic post but guess what it is! So as usual I bid adieu with a small quote:

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall." Confucius

Cheers,
Moksha

PS: CAT time again..... so as usual I shall be dishing out my CAT fare pretty soon!
PPS: Time to say buh-byee to loads of friends who depart for the US; Andy, Ray and Rane figuring prominently.......

Thursday, June 5, 2008

The last vestiges of engineering..... The first drops of rain........

The bell rang and it was over, just like that. 4 years of struggle, happiness, pain, tears, joy, love, hate, fights, patch-ups and all it takes is a nanosecond to finish it off! Well its over.......
Today was just like any other, got up at 5 to revise for one last time, changed, went to Saurabh's house, studied there, went to college and sat for the paper. Gave the paper and came out. Was there actually any difference to this day? As far as the ritual goes, no there was no difference whatsoever.
But something did change today. A whole group of boys and girls grew up. We have taken that final irrevocable step into 'life' as it is called. Somehow this reminds me of the British Raj and its departure from Indian history. That was something that was incredible, astonishing, a spectacle yet something that bound an entire nation, shackled it to the ground. Now that we have found our own independence, its time to let go. But you know the last viceroy of India Mountbatten wanted the Raj to go out in all its pomp and show and glory. So be it.........
Starting from tomorrow, no actually today itself, the show begins. Its time to party people! Another month or so and God knows where we will all land up! So what say guys and gals?? Lets kick some serious ass.......I remember putting up a to-do list before my CAT exam in one of my earlier posts, so here's version 2.0:
  1. Sleep at least 10 hours a day ( note the 'day').
  2. Go to college everyday and have a blast.
  3. Watch at least 2 movies everyday.
  4. Catch every new movie using the Vodafone Tuesday offer.
  5. Join Andheri sports complex for badminton.
  6. Go for a 5 day vacation with the entire gang.
  7. Play CS every night after 12 (watch out for the next post......... :P)
  8. If find time and get through submit application for JBIMS
  9. Learn how to ride a bike
  10. Learn the guitar
  11. keep blogging....
Also this week the first drops of rains poured down in Mumbai. I find that the monsoons are the most amazing season of the four. Just the way heavens open up to satisfy the thirst of the parched earth, scorched by the summer heat, it is just such a balm for the entire world. Although I suspect there will be no one more excited about the monsoons than the Finance ministries across the world! I finally get to play in the monsoons! yipeeeeee!!!
The first drops of rain, bouncing of your hands, the smell of fresh earth, its thirst sated by the heavens, these are some things that really cannot be experienced at any other time. I was standing in my balcony (originally because 4 US chicks have come to stay in the bulding facing my balcony! :P) when the wind came from over the sea, bringing with it the smell of salt, the heavens opened up and ther it was, a small droplet of water in my palm..... gosh! Thank you God, thank you for all the seasons, especially for the monsoons!

And since this is a GYAAN blog, here are some pearls of wisdom for any of my readers who are still in college:


“You have four years to be irresponsible here. Relax. Work is for people with jobs. You'll never remember class time, but you'll remember time you wasted hanging out with your friends. So, stay out late. Go out on a Tuesday with your friends when you have a paper due Wednesday. Spend money you don't have. Drink 'til sunrise. The work never ends, but college does..."”
  1. "A professor is one who talks in someone else's sleep."
  2. "Education is the ability to listen to almost anything without losing your temper or your self-confidence."
  3. "You are only young once, after that you have to think of another excuse"
  4. "College is the fountain of knowledge and the students are there to drink."
  5. "Of course there's a lot of knowledge in colleges: the freshmen bring a little in; the seniors don't take much away, so knowledge sort of accumulates."
  6. "There's a kind of freedom in being completely screwed, because you know things can't possibly get any worse."

And my personal favorite:

"I learned three important things in college - to use a library, to memorize quickly and visually, to drop asleep at any time given a horizontal surface and fifteen minutes."

:D


cheers ppl,


moksha


PS: Comps finish on the 10th.......hahhahahaahahhahahahaha
PPS: really love the last quote man...... damn kool wat say???

Thursday, May 29, 2008

The beginning of the end.......

Well, finally its here! On the 5th of June, at exactly 2:00 pm we'll finish our last paper, thereby marking the end of a journey. In remembrance of that journey, here is a small poem that I wrote myself

AN ODE TO ENGINEERING

what ode can i give to thee,
you who are forever a part of me

what ode can i give to thee,
you who have sustained me

what ode can i give to thee,
you who have given millions memories to me

what ode can i give to thee,
you who have from darkness to light led me

what ode can i give to thee,
you who has shown me the highest highs and the lowest lows

what ode can i give to thee,
you who has been a home of 4 years to me

what ode can i give to thee,
you who has given my friends to me

what ode can i give to thee,
you who has given my life to me

Odes are for things that pass away,
you'll leave only when I do
an engineer I'll always be,
because you are forever a part of me
tell me O Engineering
what ode can i give to thee?


Well that's about it for this post....... On my way out just another sexy quote i found while surfing on the net:

Even if we are occupied with important things and even if we attain honor or fall into misfortune, still let us remember how good it once was here, when we were all together, united by a good and a kind feeling which made us perhaps better than we are.

- Fyodor Dostoyevsky



Well said eh??

cheers

Moksha

PS: Hell! The 5th of June may not be our last day if we get even a semi-sadist to check our PM/MS papers! Totally screwed man! All my readers... pray... just pray!

PPS: and yes I did write that poem on my own.....


Tuesday, May 13, 2008

My tryst with destiny - Part II

Yes I know its my third blog in as many days...... But hey if you know that, it means you actually do read my blog, so I guess you really don't have any problems with me even writing everyday huh??

Well lets not digress any further. This post acts as a sequel to this post
so without further ado... lets go......... As I mentioned in the previous post, I will have a tryst with my destiny. The funny thing is that, I won't know if that tryst is the one I am looking for unless I actually do it.
Tomorrow I go to Sydneham Institute of Management Studies aand Research at Churchgate for my Group Discussion/Personal Interview round of the admission process. Is this my true tryst with destiny? I don't know! and being the immoral SOB that I am, if I make it through tomorrow, I shall surely proclaim it to be the one. But no matter what, this day will be life changing for me (right chillar? :) ) Win or Loose, In or Out, tomorrow will go a long way in shaping my next 5-10 years. I hope the change is for the better. And just for the record, yes I am shit scared. My parents have invested a lot of time and money and patience into me and this oppurtunity, I really don't want to waste this, not for my parents, cause they will gladly do the entire thing all over again but for me. Its time I took some responsibility on my own shoulders. I have a younger brother who needs to be shaped up and moulded for his future. I don't want to be a hindrance to that anymore. I wish that God gives me the strength to give my best and do well tomorrow.

As far as the rant that i had on life in my last post... sometimes life does give you a hard deal!! things happen over which you have absolutely no control and you are left shell shocked. Some thing of that sort happened to me and I vented my frustations via that post. You know I could have easily removed that post, but no, I want this blog to be a honest reflection of my feelings. I may not be a great writer but at the very least I know I am an honest one. I saw the Rocky Balboa movie yesterday and Rocky tels his son, " Life is not all sunshine and roses........ Its not about how hard you can hit, its all about how hard you can get hit and keep coming back......."
Hey thats very true. A decision beyond anyone's control had been made, there's no changing certain facts. But I will not back down, I will not submit.... keep on trudging, fighting and climbing......
You know why??? Because in the words of ACDC..............
"its a looong way to the top if you wanna rock n roll................."

cheers
moksha

PS: thanx sid.... tu nahin hota toh mera kya hota re.......... :)
PPS: ME GOING TO WATCH MUMBAI INDIANS vs. KOLKATTA KNIGHT RIDERS........ GO Mumbai Go!!! MI FOREVER.............

Monday, May 12, 2008

When Life fucks you, there is nothing you can do

Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to live and to work and to play and to look up at the stars.
-Henry Van Dyke

as far as Mr. Henry Van Dyke goes, I say Fuck u bitch!!!!
who said life was fair man?? Life is anything but fair........ and you really don't have much choice! You know exactly what I am talking about. You are on the threshold of jumping into the true life(another fucked up cliche!), you are making grandiose plans for the future and then suddenly WHAM! Life comes out of nowhere and kicks you in your nuts. And man doesn't it hurt!
Why does life have to behave like such a bitch? And above all why did you choose me to be your guinea pig? What wrong have I done? I never asked you to make me anything , hell I haven't even asked you to make me human! You had no excuse Life, none at all, to come and fuck me upside down man! Yeah people will hide behind the old saying, "whatever happens happens for the good only......", Hey why don't you guys just come and kiss my big fat arse???? How the fuck do you decide what's good for me and what isn't ??? I do believe that I reserve the right to determine what is good for me and what is not!
So Life why don't you take your ugly face and flush it down the toilet? Come on, I deserve a break man! Hope springs eternal doesn't it?? Hey I wanna see that silver lining in that black cloud. Please life! Please....... Sometimes even the worst of us deserve a better chance. Hey come on life, do this for me..... I need a miracle to help me..... come on gimme some! I wish there was some divine power who specialized in cases like mine. I could have fired off a SOS to him/her. Look, I know I am not the perfect person or anything but there are some things which can be achieved without being perfect. Just show me some hope please.......

HELP ME GODDAMN IT! HELP ME!

moksha

Friday, May 9, 2008

Just another viva...... not quite.......

Well, finally its done and dusted, all the files have been submitted, all reports signed, all journals checked, all submissions sheets filled...........................
the last questions have been answered, the last fleeting smiles to the internal examiner been given, finished peeping at the folded sheet in front of the examiner trying to figure out what the grades were, its over............
But its pretty difficult realizing it, I mean it really doesn't feel as if I will never ever be giving another viva at SFIT. Without realizing, vivas have become such a second nature to most of us, its hard to let go. You know I still remember my first viva, I think it was PCOM, and goddamn it I was so bloody scared! Mrs. Vincy Joseph was our internal examiner and whom it seemed as that time as the biggest sadist of them all was our external (sorry forgot his name!). I entered the lab and Vincy mam gave me a glare...... Ohh Shit! I almost peeed in my pants man! She was asking me some questions, and as expected I really did not answer one word...... the external then took pity and asked me some basic stuff which I could answer. Strange how the sadist changed into my guardian angel :D.
I am pretty much sure that each and every one who reads this blog will have hundreds of memories attached only with vivas. Guys hold on to them, they are pretty important and special... I wish I could compile some ofthe funniest and most amazing viva memories from our class and post it up here. I promise to do that in my next post.
And yes, my vivas are over. Never again will I sit on the stairs wondering when da fuck will the external examiner turn up, or what the fuck is he/she going to ask? I have given around 20 vivas in my time at SFIT, and now I can say with a lot of pride and nostalgia that I LOVED EACH AND EVERY MOMENT OF THEM... yeah some ppl will ask how can you love vivas? hey, the scene is different from this side of the fence! Guys enjoy the ride..... its worth all the bumps and bruises that you get along the way!
And finally as it is my custom here's a little quote.......................

"We do not know the true value of our moments until they have undergone the test of memory."
-Georges Duhamel

How true, isn't it? Well goodbye engineering vivas.... I'll miss you!
and winamp just played Knockin' on heavens door...........
Cheers ppl,
Moksha

PS: hey there are gonna be a lot more senti posts............heheheh! lol :P
PPS: IT-2008, please lemme know any funny memories you can think of when it comes to vivas......